it’s so easy
and so hard.
Even my cats like him. That’s not to say that they are the only ones to approve people in my life, but Meo and Oberon are more than thrilled with his company. As am I.
Webster has two definitions of the word selfish that I’d like to share.
Pronunciation: ’sel-fish
Function: adjective
1 : concerned excessively or exclusively with oneself : seeking or concentrating on one’s own advantage, pleasure, or well-being without regard for others
2 : arising from concern with one’s own welfare or advantage in disregard of others
‘concerned excessively with oneself’ - check
‘arising from concern with one’s own welfare’ - check
But everything else listed does NOT apply to what’s happening right now. I am overly concerned with how he feels. He’s overly concerned with how I feel. There is caution around every corner, and there is affection from both sides. Isn’t that is the exact opposite of selfish?
Whatever happens today and whatever we can enjoy right now is worth it’s weight in gold. Nobody knows what happens tomorrow. Nobody knows if the sky will fall in the next ten minutes.
This is the most difficult thing I’ve been through when I’m not with him, and yet, it’s the easiest thing I’ve ever done when he is around.
lyrics from “Groovejet (If This Ain’t)” (Spiller, featuring Sophie Ellis-Bextor)
Holding you closer
It’s time that I told you
Everything’s going to be fine
Know that you need it
And try to believe it
Take me one step at a time