Holiday parties, Christmas cheer, baking and Japanese. Busier weekend than I anticipated.
It’s been a wild ride this weekend and I got sick which is horrible. Everyone in the cast seems to have the sniffles. We even lost our head Elf Terry this past weekend, and David had to go on for him. Totally fun in every way, but the Elven dance numbers felt spare without Terry on stage. I also felt like I couldn’t hear a lick of music at the shows. Somehow I can hear the opening of all the music numbers, but once they begin the sound drops out. It’s not because I’m sick either ’cause its been that way since the get-go.
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I broke up with my Japanese teacher. She was naturally courteous and happy for me that I am pursuing other things, but as she was leaving she whispered so gently “Peter-san, I will miss you a lot.” I couldn’t even look her in the eye. I bowed as deeply as I could and in the most humble form of Japanese I knew, I thanked her deeply for all her time with me. And then as I shut the door I proceeded to cry like a baby for nearly twenty minutes.
I felt bad. I FEEL bad. I’m all ripped up inside that I won’t be seeing her as regularly as before. Over the last four years she has become such a wonderfully comfortable part of my life and has truly taught me more than anyone else. I don’t just mean the language or the culture. Facing her, talking with her, sharing her wisdom has moved the way I think about the reactions and interactions we experience as people to another level. Kind, warm, and incredibly generous, Mieko Fujii changed my life forever.
Oh christ my eyes are welling up even as I type this.
I plan, each month, to at least have dinner with her. Damn it, I am crying. Here at my desk. At work. I have to stop writing about this now. It’s still too much.